Powell Family 2012

Powell Family 2012

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Status taken the wrong way

Ive had to think long and hard on if i was going to blog about this but as ive had over 20 private emails or msg on this i feel i need to blog about it. I dont want it to look like im being down on someone as thats not the case at all. I like this person very much and have gone out of my way to help her in the past and certainly would again. Also she did send me a msg also saying how sorry she was for taking something the wrong way so theres certainly no hard feelings towards her.
Anyway on monday which was the eve of my mums first anniversary of her being gone, i posted my status that i felt that people that were only a tank of gas away from there loved ones in there final days should really be counting there blessings. It was something that to me would have been a total luxury. Wow the freedom of just being able to jump into a car and being with my mum during her cancer and her hospital stay until she passed away. Any length of car ride would have been worth it and something i would have though of as a luxury. Certainly not something i would have been whining about. The post was just my reflections on my own guilt for not being there for my mum in her final moments and how much i really wish i could have been. Me talking about people not taking the things for granted that i couldnt have is nothing new. If you read my blog your have seen many many posts about it in the past year or so. In fact ive had many many people tell me that there reading it has made them closer to there own mothers and how they treasure what they have with them, so i feel ive helped people with my rantings, lol. Its all no secret to most of you that know me also that i have felt very bashed by a small group of people during the hardest months of my life which for me has been the past two years. Im not going to go into it as i really want to ignore it this year and not dwell on what others are or are not doing, but the fact remains i was bashed while at the lowest point of my life. But luckily had tons of amazing people that kept me sane and lifted me up. Anyway the person i mentioned above read my status in the wrong way. (she admits that) and she left me a comment that got a lot of people very upset on my behalf (judging by the many emails i got this week), she made a comment about my mum being gone a year which upset a lot of people and also said that i was bashing people whos mum was dieing and what sort of person did that. Like i said she has said she is sorry for her words and i accepted it. What got a lot of people upset is first the reference to my mum being gone a year now. Yes she has and im not going to say sorry for still missing her and feeling like crap sometimes about it. Everytime i see my grandbabies i wish my mum could be there just for an hour to share it with me. But all i can say is, this is something we all have to go though at some point in our lifes and one day you will be where i am and you will know, thats really all i can say. The other reference that got people upset was the reference that i was bashing people whos mum did not have long to live. Hmmm again, i know all too well what that is like and i certainly wouldnt do it. But it does always amaze me that the same people that do things for whatever reason, usually turn around and cry wolf that others are doing it to them. Ive seen that many times over the years and ive always wondered why that is. Again i want to say that this person who mis read my post has said she was sorry and i am not angry or upset with her in any form. I think sometimes when you listen to gossip so much from others and you dont know the person at all its easy to start beleiving what you are told and you no longer see gossip as gossip but as the truth. I just deleted the post and decided not to think about it. But since monday like i said i have gotton tons of personal emails and msg about it. I just want to thank you all for supporting me and standing by me. Its easy for you guys as you know me and know how i think so knew what i was talking about. You were all out raged that i was accused of something you had seen directed at me for two years and also out raged that i was in fact being bashed yet again on the eve of my mums death. Yeah it hurt for a few mins but thats all. I really have started this year with a whole different attidute. I will not let anyone pull me down or pull down the memorys of my mother or my feelings for my mother. If i want to miss her the rest of my life i will. If its ten years from now i will and its nothing to do with anyone else. But like i answered everyone the person involved did make a mistake with her words and said she mis read what i put. She dont know me and so dont know what ive gone though and how i was feeling on monday, she over reacted wrongly but then corrected it by saying she was sorry. But thank you everyone for jumping on my defense and for watching my back, Of course its easy for you like i said because you do know me and know what ive gone though. But your contined support of me was just amazing and thank you. I love you all.

2 comments:

  1. I know where you're coming from. When you post a status people can't hear your tone of voice so it's easy to read it the wrong way. It's crazy how one sentence can be said so many different ways with so many different meanings.

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  2. Yeah so true. Have you noticed how you or someone can say something on facebook and everyone can think its about them, lol. But what ive found tho is that the only people ive had problems with on facebook are people that i had or have problems with off of facebook so i think that also if someone has bad feelings about you in the first place they can use anything you say as an excuse to turn it into something it wasnt. Just to have a go at you. Makes me so i dont want to put a status on there ever again, lol.

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