A New Day

Today marks a year that my sweet mother passed away. Its been a very hard year for all of us. We still miss her so much and not a day goes by that i dont wish that i could talk to her just one more time. Its hard being with the grandbabies and not thinking of her and how much she would have loved to have met them and spent time with them. Its hard sometimes to also not think that life isnt fair. But at the same time she left us with such wonderful memorys that its hard not to smile or laugh when you think about them. To say she was loved is an understatement. No grandmother or mother or wife could have been loved more then she was. It still touches me today when i see or hear comments from my kids and know how much they loved her. The fact they all rushed many miles to be at her funeral when it was so far away was certainly proof if any was needed. It certainly reflected all the times she went out of her way to be at events that were important to them. I want to thank everyone thats supported me this past year. My wonderful hubby Ralph who tried so hard to make this day special and not a sad one. I woke up to a beauiful card from him, a great luncheon and red roses delivered to me at work today. What a guy. Also thanks to all my kids for there support during her illness and the day she passed away and the months that followed. Heather for always being there for me and for traveling to England with me so we could spend a last trip with my mum before her cancer got too bad. Will always treasure those memorys forever. Hayley for being so willing to travel from Hawaii though 11 time zones to England for her funeral and being there for me. The boys for being there with there support and there wifes. Carole for putting all our travel plans together at a time i couldnt think very straight. All my co workers and friends who loved and supported me during her cancer and were there the day she passed away and afterwards, and were also there for me today when i walked into work with open arms and hugs. Krista for helping with a cute suit for Leland with a liac shirt, my mums fave color. Also our minerette family who made my mum feel so special at the competitions she was able to attend, for loving us and caring for us during this hard time and for taking such good care of Lucy when i wasnt attend to attend Region last year due to being in London already taking care of my mums last needs. My cousins and aunts and uncles in england for there love and support. Lee for letting his brothers and sisters know she had passed away when i was too upset to make the calls myself. And last of all Lucy for putting together such a beauiful solo to A New Day for my mum. I will always remember my mums face when she saw Lucy dance for her. What a great expression of her love for her grandmother. My brother for helping me keep it all together and his family. And of course my dad who is always there for me and always will be. What a great family and group of friends i have. I am totally blessed. Today went a lot better then i though it would even tho my sweet Uncle Bill who passed away on christmas eve had his funeral in england today. I wish i could have been able to have attended.
I would like to relate a story my dad told me today as it really is one of those stories that makes you think.
My dad forgot that he had an eye app today in colchester. Im sure he had my mum on his mind and totally blew it off. He said he had a call at the last min and was told to rush down there. He rushed out, jumped on a bus and off it went into colchester. When it arrived in colchester the bus stopped dead in traffic and didnt move. He turned to look out the window and noticed that the bus was parked not only outside the hospital my mum had passed away in but also right outside her window of her room she had been in. The hospital has no grounds and the building is right on the sidewalk pretty much and then theres the narrow roads. Not like our hospitals out here at all. He turned away and looked at his watch for something to do i guess and then almost jumped. The time said 2.14pm. The time my mum had passed away a year to the second before. He feels very sure my mum had something to do with him being late and being there at that time. He jokes that she told him she was going to haunt him and he saids she still lets him know once in awhile that shes still there doing just that. lol. Lucy also said she turned on her facebook today and the first status she saw said A New Day, the song Lucy did her solo too.
Anyway that was our day, its hard to believe its been a whole year. Its been a year of first of everything and we have all got thought it. She will always be remembered with love and will never be forgotton. Love you Mum, Miss you so much. You were such a good friend to all of us and weve treasure the memorys for always.